That's me, Mrs. Negativity.

When I was younger, I used to always find at least one thing I liked about someone that drove me absolutely bonkers. Now, I just spend my time bitching about them.lol. I really don't know what's happening to me! Is it because I'm getting older? Is it because I'm gotten more jaded over time? Or, have I just stopped making excuses for people that act like jerks? Either way, I've noticed that as of late, I spend more time judging and ridiculing people that JUST AREN'T NICE and even people that are nice but are behaving in a way that I never would. Which, in turn, is JUST NOT NICE of me at all! Like, when did I, Kim, become such a saint (apparently...according to myself anyway)??? I mean, I'm not a saint, quite far from it in my opinion. Oh, and that too, all the sudden I have LOTS of opinions! Maybe I've always been this judgemental, opinionated, my shyte don't stink type person but was just better at hiding it from everyone, including myself.lol.

However, this does have me thinking about what I would think of myself if I had a conversation with my 'judgemental self' and I saw all the judging I'm capable of. I would likely walk away thinking, 'Wow, she's pretty judgemental' and I probably wouldn't like me or want to spend time with me. The funny thing is, the 'non-judgemental' me would be judging my 'judgemental' self so I'd be back at square one. Did I lose you yet? lol.

All I know is that it has to end for my sanity is at stake. I mean, after I go on a rant, I feel like an ass because, well, I behaved like one so I had it coming. I figure I need to take my opinions, my judgemental self, my crankiness and all the other toxic traits that have been plaguing me and shove 'em. Why? Because I don't want to spend more of my life bitching about things than I did enjoying all the good things, because let's be honest, my life is good and I know it.

But mostly, I miss the old me and want her back. She was much more FUN for me to be around!lol. :)