Remember me???

I'm not sure if I've ever mentioned this before but I married a man that I went to high school with. As you may already know, we were not high school sweethearts and didn't actually meet till much later in life. I guess people could say that when we're all cute and cuddly, we're making up for lost time. teehee.

The thing is, I don't remember Keith at all from high school - like not even a blip on my memory radar. This is something that we often joke about and I find it odd that I don't remember him in the slightest. I mean, he's a pretty memorable guy in my opinion and I'm wishing I did meet him in high school if not for love then at least for his humour. :)

Buuuut, that's not how it worked out which is usually a-ok. However, recently we ran into two, not one, but TWO people we went to school with and alas, I remembered these two gentleman quite clearly and when Keith asked me if I remembered them. I kind of wanted to lie because I felt bad for not knowing him. And the thing is, I'm the queen of feeling guilty and I do this even in situations when I really have nothing to feel guilty about. And of course when I feel guilty, what happens? Well I usually end up having some messed up dream about it and wake up thinking WTF and end up trying to put two and two together.

Cut to: Me sleeping not so long ago. Me dreaming. Me back in high school but at the age I am now - so like 24. hehe. WHAT?!

All I can remember clearly from the dream is sitting on an exercise mat during gym class and some guy trying to kiss me and I'm like 'Dude, get off of me, I'm married'!!!! So that's all I remember aside from waking up and thinking that the guy looked familiar to me. I was like, maybe he's someone famous or something and then it just CLICKED about two hours later. It was KEITH in high school and not like my 30 year old husband Keith but teenage Keith. So I guess that makes it okay....because making out with some random teenage boy in high school in my dream is much more pervy than making out with the high school version of my husband, isn't it?

Yeah, I know, I'm majorly messed up.lol.

Zombie

I'm still suffering from bloggers block but at least now I think I know why! It's simple - we got Sasktel Max cable.lol. Some people wouldn't consider that having cable television as a distraction constitutes as 'bloggers block' but I beg to differ. I mean, I watch, then I stop watching and then I go to type and I have nothing to type because life has been pretty slow and why is it slow? Because I'm spending my spare time watching peoples lives on t.v.
I literally become a zombie in front of that thing. :s

Right now it's nice to have because it's cold outside and I never deny myself of cheap entertainment. We have it for the next three months but I already know that I won't miss it when it's gone. I'll be like, goodbye commercials that drive me nuts and HELLO SPRING!

For now, I sit back with the essence of control at my fingertips and CHANNEL SURF. lol.

Errrrgh - Arrrrrgh

I cannot write for the life of me lately. My apologies people! I've spent the past hour trying to create a blog and it sooooo isn't happening. :s

I think I have bloggers block and all I can do is throw my hands in the air and wave them like I *starts dancing*....ahem, I mean, throw my hands in the air out of frustration.

This blog = Epic fail!

Back to the 'drawing board' I guess.

If I don't beat this block by Christmas, have a HAPPY HOLIDAY everyone!!! :)

Things that make me go 'wtf'?

Why is it that sometimes my daily 'bm' comes out looking like it's been braided?

TMI? You're welcome! lol.

Why therapy doesn't always work with my sense of humour

Background information: What seems like decades ago, I was in what we will call a very unhealthy relationship. To spare you the boring details that will not enhance the story I will just say that it resulted in going to talk to someone about stuff. I was placed with a wonderful woman that was great to talk with and influenced my choices in life greatly. I think therapy is a great practice and not the 'taboo' thing some people can make it out to be. For me, sometimes it's just nice to shoot the shit with someone who has your best interest at heart. I'm not saying that my friends and family don't but sometimes their judgement can be blurred in ways that a therapist's wouldn't. If you're lucky like I was and put in touch with the right therapist the results can be life altering in such a positive way. Buuuut, enough of that and on with my story because yet again, it's all about me. :)

Scene: We're discussing something traumatic that happened to me when I was younger and we're using visualization to help cope with it which means my eyes are closed and I'm picturing everything we're discussing. At this point, I have already envisioned myself putting that 'issue' in a box to be put away and locked in a drawer. Sound a little hokey (sp)? Definitely! But did I see results? Definitely!

Her: So now Kim, you have a key to this box. What would you like to do with it?

Me: I want to throw it into an ocean NEVER to be found again. I just want this to be done with and get over it already.

Her: That sounds like a plan so go ahead and throw that key away.

Me: Alright, it's gone - I threw it like rrreeeaaaalllly far.

Her: Okay, now open your eyes whenever you're ready.

Me: *I open my eyes and let them adjust*

Her: So how are you feeling?

Me: Better! I feel like that really helped. I was letting this 'issue' weigh me down and it was just time to let go.

Her: Now you know Kim, any time you feel like you want to or need to, we can revisit this 'issue' if necessary. Just let me know and we can open that drawer up again if you ever find yourself struggling with that 'issue' again.

Me: *deep sigh* But I already threw away the key and I didn't make a cooooopy.

The End.

I KILL myself sometimes!!! LMAO! :)

Life is BOO-TEE-FULL!

You know, sometimes life just gets so AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and a year passes me by like THAT *snaps fingers*! And once in a while I have the urge to stop time just to have a moment to breathe and really see things for what they are. As far as I know I can't stop time like the character Hiro in the show Heroes (but wouldn't that be SUPERFANTABULOUS?) Anyway, what I can do is be more aware of my surroundings and I try, I really doooooo. I am my father's daughter after all and he's a man that will just randomly notice something really beautiful and take the time to appreciate it. I mean, I've seen this man drive properly full speed on the highway while looking up to the sky just to catch a glimpse of one of our famous prairie sunsets. Scary? Definitely, but I admire him for this quirky habit and wish I could hop on THAT bandwagon.

The good thing is that I have great friends that send me many funny emails as well as many beautiful heart felt emails. Mrs. Dwayne THE ROCK Johnson sends me them often because she knows I'm a sucker and some of the most simple things transform into something so beautiful to me that I cry. She once sent me a clip of people (complete strangers to those around them) holding signs that said 'Free Hugs' and would walk up to people and offer them a hug and people would accept! Not only that but some people would see the person holding the sign and run up and give them a big hug. So simple, yet I wept like I had just given birth to my first born. Not that I actually 'know' what that's like but I can only imagine that a new mom just feels so overwhelmed with beauty that it consumes you to the point that you cry and cry and cry until there's no more tears left to shed, but like, in a good way. lol.

Well anyway, this all brings me to this video of an amazing vocal group that surprises unsuspecting shoppers with a song while they're eating lunch. Please check out the video and enjoy because sometimes life is hard. And if we're VERY lucky like I am, family and friends as well as complete strangers will come in to your life and make your day beautiful. :)

http://www.youtube.com/user/AlphabetPhotography